33: BANANA PANCAKES

so far i'm feeling really good about life and its surprises. did nothing today but make banana chocolate pancakes with my older sister. pointless celebration is the best of it's kind. apparant there was supposed to be tsunami coming at 11am, didn't really happen so i wasted my worries. still raining but i promised my self i wouldn't let it get to me, it's going to be summer and everything will change for the better.

32: WRECK

everyone still remembers their first party. the first time they felt like everyone was looking at them and see through them at the same time. it feels good, even without the booze.

31: FAULTY

so let me break it all down for you, everything is my fault. yes it's sad but true and everyone it seems to be the fairest way to explain everthing. fml.

30: SECRET FRIENDS

My school has this thing called "secret friends" that we're doing this week to promote random acts of kindness. i got the most amazing things and it was someone i didn't even think of so i'm absolutely estatic. rained today. hard. THERE WAS NO USE STRAIGHTNING MY HAIR WHEN IT RAINED IT OUT ANYWAY!

29: THE GLEE CLUB

JUST EXPERIENCED THE MOST EPIC LAUGHING FIT. it's been an absolute century since i ever have had one so it's amazing to know that i can still have free-spirited fun. the most amazing thing was that we were close to the meadows and forests which made me feel all fluttery as if we were enchanted. *janine is pathetic.

28: DRIPPING

wasting time watching a magical disney movie. next week is the last week of school for the term. you have no idea how happy i am! for the next two weeks i'll blowing off some steam and SHOPPING! if i have the time.

27: TOLERANCE

now that they've stopped asking i have this obstructing nerve which always makes me want to bring it up. i don't understand why it's so confusing, no one interesting but so so compelling. since i can't talk about it, thinking and wondering is my happy place. dreaming of better days and more company.

26: HAPPY RAIN

RAIN RAIN JUST GO AWAY! it's raining but everything is falling into place. no one is at home but me and my sister and that is absolute bliss for me. i've blogged like madman and now i feel drenched. i watched the mikado yesterday, a very clever parody actually (they were all harajuku). my sister was brilliant.

25: GLEE

i'm most certainly HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! i spent 2 hours making daisy chains with one of my best friends and played the butterfly around those guys. everything is falling into a beautiful and serene place.

24: PRISON

i feel lighter than air but tied down as a prisoner. there are those people who make my tummy sommersault and those who just give me a heart attack. they're the good/only part of my young life. WHY IS IT SUCH A PROBLEM!? maybe its just me, maybe i'm putting too much thought into this. b r a i n i s s p i n n i n g.

on to another subject. i honestly don't understand why people still ask me the same stupid questions when i say no. it's a simple word, with a simple and basic meaning. NO.

23: GOOD NIGHT

TWAS A FUCKING GOOD NIGHT.

22: SWANS

everyone that i know and don't particularly like have blogspots now, grr. dad and buddies are having machine talk and kareoke (spelling). i'm drenched out from last night. good fun good fun.

21: HIPPY SPIN

question: why am i listening to n'sync? today was sad and gloomy, the rain just kept on coming. which i could not tolerate at all. school was school and home is home. i'm going to have some soup.

20: LAKESIDE

I HATE WHEN YOU SAY SOMETHING STUPID. and then everyone just suddenly becomes against you. you didn't mean to and it's not like something bad will happen; just the fact that you said it was enough to blow them off the edge.

19: DONT CALL ME AGAIN

feeling a little better today. still annoyed, just at different people this time. the other ones; we cool. i'm really in need of some smile-time. maybe spidey will help me up, fuck i hope so.

18: BURN

i'm screaming under my skin, nobody seems to really listen to me. like fully listen to a word i say. they only see me when they need someone to fetch them a drink or do stupid things that they can do on their own. i'm soo tired of all the crap i take.

17: DELICACY

feeling really pissed off, why do i have to do everything? why is it always my fault when i wasn't even home? i want my own room or my own place. i can't wait.

16: BAMBI

i'm totally beat. everything spinning really faaaaaaast. i need to sleep.