I need to unclench my fists, there's too much oestrogen in this annoying house. CHATCHATBLAPBLAPCHIT that's how everyone in my house sounds. Usually I tolerate it all and I'm usually a part of it but nowadays every word anyone says is like nails to a chalk board. As they argue about what wallet she should be bringing I just bite my tongue and my inner cheeks as hard as I can. I'm getting ulcers. My eyebrows have permanently tensed - I don't know how to describe it, I just look very distressed/pissed off.
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I'm not annoyed at them, it's me, I feel on edge all the time now and I don't know what's wrong. I get really annoyed at everything-- breathe heavily, clench teeth, tight jaw. Today I meditated. Not the 'traditional' way or using special techniques from the web. Just me trying to relax, I play my music, unfold my body (letting my energy run freely, without any steep turns), I breathe in deeply, hold it in, breathe out and try to ignore the fact the walls are so thin.
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What they're talking about isn't even thing to be distressed about, it's just boring and normal shit that I'm getting worked up about. I think I'm just really bored and pissed at something I can't put finger on so I take out on this. I'm talking out of my ass right, being such a whinge. Buh I'm over it. Bye.
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